Post by Angmor on Dec 20, 2009 23:54:17 GMT -5
Why did he always go back?[/Color]
This was a question that plagued Niar's mind at every second of the day. As he walked out the back gate of the palace, showing his papers to the suspicious guards, he threw a glance back inside. He had been assigned to the imperial delegation of the surprise peace talks here in Feinster, for reasons that he dared not predict. They had simply told him to go, so he went. Shortly after arriving at the palace of lady Lorana, he had asked his superior, the leader of all the spooks that had accompanied the delegation, if he could go outside and wander the city for a few hours before the summit began. His superior knew the full details of Niar's life, that he would like nothing better to defect to the Varden side, that he was technically a military prisoner of the Empire.
And the man had granted him the request without a word about it.
"Just make sure to be back in time for the summit," He had said ominously.
"We may have some need for you."
Niar could only guess what that meant. But now here he was was, stepping out of the palace and away from his imperial masters, into a Varden-held city completely and totally without supervision, with even a little money in his pocket. He had been trained for stealth. He could walk off into this city, and the Empire would never find him again. And yet Niar knew that whatever happened, he would still go back.
Finally satisfying the guards, both Varden and imperial that he was who the set of papers said he was, he stepped through the gate and into the deserted cobblestone street. There was a slight breeze blowing in from the west, carrying a lingering winter bite along with the salty tang of the nearby sea. Niar shivered and gathered his formally embroidered cloak around himself, picking a direction at random and striding briskly along it.
The city was eerily quiet.
He knew from the after-action reports that had reached the capital that most of the civilians of the city had fled from the city after the Varden guerrillas had breached and held the front gates. The Varden special forces were very good at finding the one asset on which the Empire hung all of its tactical hopes, and then denying them that asset.
Niar knew. He had been one of the ones doing the denying.
Everywhere he looked, there was signs of a hurried departure. The abandoned street was littered with cast off flotsam, doors hung open on their hinges, either left open or broken inward by the bands of looters that he had no doubt were roaming the city, and dark windows seemed to glare at him like eyeless sockets. He shivered.
Still, he couldn't blame the civvies for running. Even if he didn't wish to live under the Empire, even that was better than living at the embattled frontlines of a war.
A war in which he was on the wrong side.
He sighed. He had hoped that coming out here to wander the city would banish such thoughts, but apparently it did not. He still just could not get around the fact that despite all of the freedom he had, he still kept on going back to the Empire he hated. But what else could he do? How could he get out, knowing exactly the consequences? If he left, then his sister would die. It was that simple. Nothing could be done to change it. And since his memory was probed after each and every operation, he could not enlist help from anyone to try and save her. And yet, he was forced to safeguard her life by helping to do the things that he had dedicated his life to fighting. Yet how could he escape an enemy that made sure to know his very thoughts?
Over and over these thoughts tumbled through his head, back and forth, to and fro until it felt as if his head would split in two. Finally, trying to block out the conflicting ideas swarming through his brain, he threw off the barriers around his mind, casting out his perception all around him. It felt like taking a veil off his eyes.
Instantly the seemingly empty world around him became teeming with life. He remembered once talking with Nyana about what it was like to have this experience. He had described it as standing in a darkened room, surrounded by hundred of pinpricks of light, like fireflies. Each point of light was the mind of a living thing. It wasn’t a perfect analogy, just something to try and describe something that could not be described in the linear three dimensions of the physical world. The truth went far beyond that. Here, colors were so vivid that they could be felt.
The smallest lights of all were the thousands of insects, swarming beneath the cobbles under his feet and in the walls around him, just begining to come active after a long winter slumber. The largest points of light, the ones that wavered and pulsed, were the people. There was far less of these. Somewhere off to his right, he found a small group of looters preparing to break into an empty house, their minds tinged with the golden mist of exhilaration, clouded by the cold grey tendrils of fear. Somewhere behind him, probably one street over, he could sense a Varden patrol, their minds held in rigid check by iron bands of discipline. Suddenly, one of them flared with a sudden red spike of hatred. Shifting his perception to towards what the Vardener was focusing on, he found what looked like a lone imperial soldier, his mind filled with thoughts of going to his father’s house to make sure that his family was all right...
Suddenly there was a flash of a memory from the Varden soldier Niar had just sensed, so intensely vivid that he could ‘see’ without being focused on it…
…A press of red armored bodies advancing behind a phalanx of shields, cutting into the crowd of protestors, cutting indiscriminately with their swords…
…Where was Loeta? She had been right behind him a second ago, but the tides of the panicked crowd had separated them…
…Loeta’s body slumped lifelessly on the stone, a pool of blood spreading from beneath her…
With an effort, Niar pulled himself away, going back into his own skull, feeling shaken. That memory had been far too vivid, too personal. His father had warned him of this, even before Niar had been taught anything about using his mind like this. His fathered had drilled it into him, over and over. Beware of this power, Niar. While it can be used for good, you will constantly tempted to use it for your own personal gain. I tell you Niar, if you do this, you will be no better than the enemy you fight. You must use this thing I will teach you to learn, and to survive. Never to attack, and never to violate another person’s memory. You must promise me this. You really should swear in the Ancient Language, but I don’t think it would be a good idea to lay that kind of responsibility on your shoulders. Will you promise me this?
I promise.
With a sigh, he opened his eyes. No, he couldn’t randomly going around going through people’s minds. He had promised his father. That promise was the only thing he had left to cling to. No, he would find something else to distract him. Maybe the insects, those were always interesting…
He caught a movement out of the corner of his eye. He whirled instinctively, reaching for the dagger at the back of his belt…
He finally saw the small dark outline of a four legged creature. He saw the slitted eyes gazing impassively up at him, the long upraised tail, swinging rhythmically. He chuckled, relaxing. Just a cat. With a sigh, he reached out with his mind, lightly touching its mind. Niar loved cats. They always had interesting personalities for him to explore. He found the overarching emotion in this one’s mind was curiosity, focused on him.
Don’t mind me, friend.[/Color] He thought on a whim, knowing perfectly well that it would not understand.
Just rather hoping you know something I don’t.[/Color][/size][/blockquote]